GAME PLAN!



Plan for Oct. 4th

B- coffee/half granola bar 100

L- diet green tea

D- unknown/ under 300

Plan for Oct. 5th

B- coffee/half granols bar 100

L- diet green tea

D- unknown/ about 400

What am I Doing????

I have been crazy lately. All the stress I have been in caused me to throw out all I know about losing weight. I have been failing. I have gained weight, I know I have.

Starting tomorrow morning, all of my failures will not matter.

    This time, I am going to focus on:
bad foods vs good foods
Metabolism boosting
staying energized
eating tiny amounts of calories per day.

      I am hoping to burn twice as much calories consumed.

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I love her hair. jusssayin



MY thinspiration.

Things that Thinspire me:
    
     Beautiful Clothes
     Happiness
     Photography
     Skinny Jeans
     Beautiful Tiny People
     Being Able to Wear Anything
     Matt Carrying Me
     Being in My Underwear
     The Thought of One Day being Thinspo
     Not being SelfConscious
    
    

Why Are People Crazy?

     Matthew got into a fight with the guy who was being an ass to me. I hate fights. I think they are stupid, but I cannot make his decisions for him. There was alot of blood where it happened. Matt busted the kids face open.
Now I have to go to school without him for 10 days. oh well.
I have been miserable lately. I cannot stay on track. There is way to much going on.
Why are people crazy?
     Matt's ex seriously needs to get her head checked. I do not know what has gotten into her. I never did anything to her. She has caused so many problems. I am not sure how much longer I can deal with this; although Matt seriously beat that kid, I think it only made things worse. Sasha got a wrong impression from the fight. I am sure she thinks they were fighting over her. They were not though. I need to stop caring what goes on in the mind of that psycho. What she says doesn't matter, same for the opinion of that fat kid.
     Starting now: I am accepting that she is rediculous, and has a misconcieved perception of reality. that means what she does and says does not affect me in any way, unless I allow it too. She cannot change things between me and Matthew.

(thanks kala)
    

Today is a bitch.

Today Sucks.
     I woke up late.
     I fell down the stairs at school.
     I ate too much food.
     Matthews ex girlfriend is being a cunt.
     I spilled paint all over my favorite jeans 
     then I spilled ketchup all over them at the
     mall.

I think I am just going to stay in bed tomorrow...

    I need thinspo, and lots of it.

     I can't wait until I can be little enough to be somebody's thinspo.

Homecoming pictures and stuff.

Homecoming 2010

I absolutely love him.

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hmm. tomorrows plan

B- Granols bar, coffee : 100cals

L- Trail mix, geen tea: 170cals

D- not sure but keeping it under 400cals

Water: going for my 8 glasses or more!

-Exercise: Bike ride!

Tomorrow: New Beginning?

     Homecoming was tonight, and it was amazing. The best part was Matt. He is unbelievably handsome. I will post a picture as soon as I can. We have lots of them. When we went to his Dad's, his aunt was there: her first comment was "she is so tiny, Matthew!" that made me feel good. I have always wanted to be tiny. And also, a few people were trying to get me involved in drama with matts ex. I was planning on beating her tonight, but I wanted to make tonight about us.
     My eating plan has been totally thrown out this weekend. I have probably consumed more calories in one day than my goal for the week. I am going to get back on track tomorrow. Sunday; the beginning of the week, that is perfect!
I really do not want to weigh myself tomorrow. i am  going to be so heavy because of the past few days. oh well.

TOMORROW

• clean
• start new "diet"
• (secret thingy!)
• catch up on sleep.

           I need thinspo!